Assalamualaikum, 

Hye all.

Idk how to describe my feelings right now or what should I do. Do I need to stay or let go. I really don't know. It's been so long I didn't feel so unwanted like this. Feels like I'm worthless. Yes, I admit that part of it was my fault because I couldn't control my temper. But there's nothing I can do since he's said that right now me and him just friend. He need some time to think. It's okay. I don't want to force anyone anymore. If someone want to stay in my life, I will be more than happy to welcome you. But if your decision want to walk away from my life, I'll just have to accept it right? Hm. Thank you for all the good memories we had for each other when we were together. I hope that one day you can find someone that can understand you and will not make you sad or heartache and much better than me. Take care of yourself. Stay safe. May you have all the good things in your life, aminn. 

Although I like to believe that he was for me, I knew that I was not for him. Maybe in time I would realize that we were not written for each other. It was time for me to let go of the heart that was never meant to stay.