Assalammualaikum, 

Hye all, 

Lately ni aku rasa stress sangat. Stress yang teramat sangat. Rasa macam tak ada orang nak faham apa yang aku rasa. Bila aku luahkan apa yang aku rasa, semua suruh aku bersabar, suruh aku bertahan. Seriously aku rasa down sangat-sangat.This is the first time that I feel this way. Rasa macam diri aku ni useless sangat-sangat. Benda kecik mcm ni pun aku nak give up. 

It's not that I've not tried to be patience or else, but rasa mcm dh reached limit sesangat-sangat until I cannot bear it anymore. But no one seems want to understand what I feel. Letih jugak sebenarnya tiap kali sebelum tidur nangis dulu, baru rasa diri mcm letih sangat-sangat baru dapat tidur. Then bila bangun dari tidur, the first thing I do now, aku akan mengeluh before start my day which is mmg bukan macam diri aku sebelum ni. Jadi lain sangat-sangat. Before this, aku happy je nak start hari baru aku. But now, rasa lifeless sangat-sangat. 

Seriously, bukan aku tak cuba nak cope with all this situation, tp memang macam aku tak boleh nak tanggung lagi rasa mcm ni. Letih sangat. Why tak ada orang nak faham aku and support je whatever decision I want to decide? It's really hurts me a lot. In the end of the day, you only have yourself. Betul lah tu. Cuma diri kau je faham kau, faham apa yang kau rasa and not judging what you feel. Orang akan faham kau bila kau happy or nampak bahagia je. but tak akan ada orang yang akan faham kau bila kau sedih or stress. Haha.

Sometimes being silent is better than telling others how you feel. Knowing that you are being heard but not understood could be more painful than expressing your feelings.